It is difficult in the existence of mankind to understand the way in which living occurs. Measurements that you learn after a time allow we to know and understand the picture of our living.
Over a period we may loose memories or phases involving understanding. The termonolgy is one that is difficult to put into accurate wording but the meaning is reversed for those who may gain an understanding.
The land in which I am from is not one that I have thought much about in my time. When a process manifested it self requiring my return it was not one thin that I was ready for. A multitude of reasons made this to be so. The initial thing being the change in dynamics and funcation to my thought process. A memory buried in the mind not far gone but connected to a multitude of people. This state at which truth becomes blured but evident in its presence.
The memories of a time once lost. Though opertunities are always present it takes time for them to truly manifest them selfs. Lie’s and tricks are all propertises of a truth or lie. My father’s intent to buired back home was not one I properly understood. I instructed it as I was instructed. There was a fear then for the lack of funds to manifest what will.

I only understood events as they occured. The way we lived was a bit bizzare but opertunites present not explored were a key. A key to memories once lost in thought. There is many things that I feared through out that period. Though an issue to me they were not in essence.
Though I wish to describe this in much more depth of which I may at a time. My understanding of situations are it was like Amnseia. Though my farther died months before this time. I understood from the way in which we lived what complications that may arise. Though my learning of knowing may have been limited for a lack of presence.

I feel that all of us in our essence are limited by this Amnseia as we move and live through out time. We can progress onwards with falsehoods and as such create what we must. Imagine in thought in which we loose our understanding or care for our past. Though some say you should hold to the past. I state that the past is whats give the future meaning and the present manifestion. Knowledge can lead one to a place of which wants, needs and desires lead away from true greatness. Falsehoods made manifest by such things as thoughts of that which is a requirment.
I had not much to do with planning of the process for I did not want to interfear or cause commotion due to the history and emotional tensions at the time. I as I recieved money I offered as I should. There was much I did not understand for I felt that if they needed me as a present person then they would consult me. I found it funny watching them burry him in the suit I wore to prom. I thought nothing of it and why would I think anything as such.
When you find your great in the favour of the universe you must warry and vigilent always. Times move as the seasons move. A lie without subtance is a truth mascarading in the minds of man. Lack of understanding is an forgiveable thing. Though willing and understanding moving with a concept of unpossible manipulation is beyound my comprehension.
The universe is wide vast and truth as known though falsehoods manifest themself. Through that wisdom we try and resurrect a deeper truth. We some run from truths of those that we care for. That is because truth is deep and you beging to understand so much that has been hidden from us. The trickstars in time are known not only to us but beyound.

The valley of kings is but a truth we hold in our living. I/We must understand to rise above. I hope and pray that those compreds made manifest that truth. That in that darkness there are not lost but present in that this time. They of who I speak know that truth of which I speak.
It is called letting go and never forgetting
The line and its time may have been distored but with out that knowledge and information is difficult to peace together.
When I speak of family I refernce not one but two and many more. Unkown to me and known. I find them in tangles of time with truth. When I work to manifest a new reality it is not has never been for my being but expression of a growing soul and people. Grown but limited by some aspects or attributes.
Though there is things I have neglected and people I have put aside for a time. The process has will always be in that restoration in readiness and preperdiness. If things can truly be changed then it is my truth that I do not possess enough of an understanding relating to how that manifition can come into creation its self.
I cried without much understanding and promessed with limited vision. The tears from an forever changing past, panic of the forgetting and forgotten. Though bones and spirit creates movement with God at the helm for the purpose of my creation and inspection is the liberation of that.
The spin orination is the creation of it and understanding of it.
Years in the mind of men but seconds in the eye of God.
I speak not words but observence. They who know will speak and move accordinly to manifest what they will. Though the cost is that truth we observe.
What we understand may not be the same, vengeance but liberation